I don’t really feel adequate
writing on this topic, but it is something that I struggled, and still struggle
with! I’m not a 26 year old where this is something that actually is a big issue,
but I think I still have about the same thought process!
I cringe at the word singleness! Ugg, that word! Just, uggg!
Okay I'm done! When I think of the word single I think of an old maid…. someone
I would rather not be! No offense my old maid friends!
I don't know about
you (you meaning my single friends!), but I want to settle down and get married
(when I’m old enough obviously!) I have had that dream for as long as I can
remember! I have my wedding planned out, kid's names picked, dream home
decorated…..etc!
Getting married and having that strong handsome prince
charming is something that our society has…hmmm, exalted. Think of all those Disney
princess movies that we girls (and guys…I’m talking to you too!!) watched and re-watched when we were little!
(*confession* I still watch them!)
Hollywood has drilled the fact that in order to be happy or
have a Happy Ever After… we must have a boyfriend or girlfriend! I hate to
break it to you my friends, but though I have never had a boyfriend I can tell
you that they can’t make you completely happy! They will let you down; break
your heart, and a lot of other stuff! There is only one who can truly satisfy
that craving for love and that is our Beloved Creator, Redeemer, Jesus Christ!
I digress…
I have struggled in the past with feelings of discontent
because many of my friends around me were getting ‘asked out’, or dating, and
none of that had ever happened to me! That really bothered me! It bothered me
so much that it consumed me!
I felt sad and gave
up hope that I would ever get married and be able to use those names for my
kids, or decorate my dream house!
A little extreme and ridiculous? Yeah I would agree!
Those feelings were of someone who had not yet been
satisfied in the point of life that God had put them in! Yeah that was me!
I can't remember the point in where God actually showed me this... whether it was
book I read, a blog post, or a conversation with someone. But that is beside
the point! The point is, God worked in that moment. He basically told me that I
wasn’t letting Him be enough. I
didn't trust Him! I was trying to take matters into my own hands and making a
mess of my own heart in the process! (Now I know why we aren't center of our
universe...because we really screw this thing up!)
It is super hard! I'm not denying that! Trust me I struggle with this every single day! So don't think for a minute that I am saying this is a piece of cake!
It is super hard! I'm not denying that! Trust me I struggle with this every single day! So don't think for a minute that I am saying this is a piece of cake!
When I started to view my current singleness as a blessing, I
began to think...Wow, this whole
singleness thing is actually pretty cool!!! I can focus on the passions and
gifts that God has given to me, I can be open to how God wants me to further
his kingdom, and say yes to the opportunities that may arise out of the blue!
My friends...being married is a beautiful thing (at least I'm
assuming it is! I'm not really knowledgeable in that department), but God
created singleness too! He gave us a time to do everything that we want to do
(those things we want to do should be what God wants us to do....just saying!)
before we are having to provide for and take care of a family!
These single years
are an amazing blessing my friends!!!!!
Love,
~Cait
